Hello, world! I’m back, dusting off this blog after nearly two months of radio silence. I honestly feel awful about this, but time truly flies!

Nevertheless, I hope all has been well with you. ; )

This past month I reached 25 years of age, and I will be honest, I wasn’t really looking forward to turning 25 at all. I guess the build-up to my birthday set me into panic mode, thinking about all the things I haven’t acheived yet and all the things that I want to do … and this dreadful feeling that I’m running out of time. Yes, I’ve been here so many times before — but it is a difficult and stubborn habit to beat. In the end, you know, it’s all hokum. After the fact, 25 feels great, and I feel ten times more mature and more sure about what I want. It is comforting to hear from people 30+ that life does, in fact, get better if you let it.

I’d actually like to share more personal things about my life and connect better with my fellow bloggers, but I really don’t feel too comfortable with sharing so much and this blog has my name written all over it. This is huge part of the reason why my writing has fallen off so much in the past year. I’m just way too reserved and I want to keep my “professional” life and image separate; at the same time, I still enjoy blogging, writing, and getting the opportunity to meet interesting people that I likely wouldn’t have otherwise met. It’s difficult to do that without getting a little more personal, considering that some of my favorite bloggers are also a bit more personal.

Knowing that anyone can look up my name and read everything I write all too easily, this creates too  much internal conflict (to share or not to share?) and, in the end, overwhelms me from writing at all. But, really, why couldn’t I have my cake and eat it, too?

I probably should have done this from the get-go, but I’m finally biting the bullet and am in the process of starting up a more personal blog that is completely disconnected from this blog. It probably doesn’t matter, but I felt like I would be doing a disservice to my loyal readers here by not mentioning it. If you are interested in tuning in to the more lighthearted and personal side of me, drop a comment and for a limited time I’ll send the link.

In the meantime, I’ll likely continue writing here a few times a month in the same themes I started writing with in the first place: personal development and philosophical ramblings. After all, I’m not a one-dimensional woman — I need several outlets to explore the different sides of myself! ; )

Until next time… adieu, mes amis!

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